30DWC - DAY 16 - Something I miss...

There are actually many things I have been missing lately, so I am just going to list them all. Deal with it!!  And it's about to get really real.


1. Us all hanging out all the time - I was thinking the other day about the all-nighter we had. All of us were over my house and we all stayed up the entire night playing games, laughing, talking, watching movies, and then we all made breakfast together the next morning. That was so so fun. I wish I had taken photos of that night. I miss us all hanging out all the time and being there for each other. I miss when we went over to that house that Ashelynn was house sitting in. We went night swimming almost every night that week. And cooked and talked and played games. So great!

2. Spencer - I'm not gonna lie to you, Bowshart, I do miss Spencer sometimes. How he used to be. How I felt about him. The potential I saw there. I miss picturing a future with him, cause I did. Feeling the way I did about him really gave me hope and helped me keep my faith in love when my whole world was falling apart with my parents and everything. He kept my hope alive, and he didn't even know it. :/

(Spencer, if you ever actually read these blog posts, and you come across this one in particular....Surprise! Ha! Hope you don't feel super weird...)

3. My family - I miss my family being a family. I miss my parents being together. Every single day I miss it. And I think back on all the good times we had as a family and it all went by so fast. I feel like I took it for granted, and I had no idea I was. Cause I NEVER expected for any of this to happen. They may have not been happy, but....I was.

4. Being a child - I miss being carefree. I miss playing with toys. I miss playing make believe with my friends. I miss not being self conscience about my body. I miss putting on a swim suit and not even thinking about how I looked. I miss acting out movies in the middle of my living room. I miss talking to my friends on the phone for hours. I miss not being worried about what I was gonna do for the rest of my life and just living in the now. Kids don't think about that stuff. They just focus on watching their favorite shows and learning how to blow the perfect bubblegum bubble. I miss believing the world was good and safe and that I could be anything that I wanted to be. Cause now everything is so scary and frustrating and confusing. I hate that.

5. I miss having grandparents....


I guess that is about it for now. Now that I have thoroughly depressed you. Ha!


- Cobb