Q&A: Jan 24-30, 2016.

24 - If you were going to start your own company, what would it be?

- Some kind of lifestyle magazine probably. With beautiful, natural photography and maybe filled with entries from people in the community. Like a Munford magazine. Start small i guess. ha!


25 - What makes "you" you?

- I hate this question. And the answer will be to generic. Like "I am caring, and funny...blahblah".
Next Question. Sometimes I feel this is answered better by other people. Because you do not always know yourself as well as you think you do. We can be too in our own heads, and sometimes other people can makes a see a side of ourselves that we didn't know that we had.


26 - Today you needed more            .

- Self discipline. I should have done something active today. Should have worked out some. Not eaten that cupcake. Always tomorrow.


27 - Which art movement best describes you today? (Surrealism, Modernism, Dada?)

- I don't know about today specifically, but in general I would say either Romanticism, Expressionism, or Dada. Google it.


28 - How do you describe home?

- Home is my safe place. It is where I feel the most comfortable and peaceful. It is where I can relax and just feel warm and happy.


29 - What was the last tv show you watched?

- The Office. As per ush.


30 - What do you want to forget?

- I want to forget all the times i have told myself that "I can't". Or any time in the past that I have believed I wasn't good enough. I want this year to be a life changing year for me. I am not getting any younger and I have some changes to make. I want to forget the past and look toward the future. And be excited! No anxious or self doubtful.


- Cobb

Q&A: Jan 17-23, 2016

17 - What's the oldest thing you're wearing today?

- Probably my underwear. I should update all my under garments.


18 - What was peaceful about today?

- I really meant to remember something specifically peaceful about today. But, I forgot to pay attention, so i really have no idea. :/


19 - List 3 foods you ate today.

- I had pancakes, mac and cheese, and eggs with toast and cream of wheat. I should keep a food journal.


20 - Are you holding a grudge? About?

- I really don't think I am. If so, I can't think of anything specific.


21 - What are you looking forward to?

- Finding another job. Getting another tattoo. Forward to the day I finally start bettering myself. The first day I stop saying and start doing.


22 - Are you seeking security or adventure?

- A little of both. I want to live spontaneously with a sense of adventure. And I want to feel secure with my decisions. Confident that God will provide no matter what.


23 - Do you need a break? From what?

- Worrying about my dad. He hasn't been in the best state of mind for a long time and I genuinely tend to worry about his well being sometimes.



- Cobb

Q&A: January 11-16, 2016

Wow....we totally forgot a week...like...it was nothing...not one thought was given that week.

Well, here it is.

11.  Today you lost            

- More money. I ordered "Begin Again" soundtrack, Mad Max: Fury Road (Fucking AMAZING movie), and The Martian (another AMAZING movie). Worth it.

12. What's your favorite accessory?

- I really adore my bar earrings my mom got me for Christmas. I doubt that i will exchange them out for a while. I also have been loving anything elephant related!! Give me all the elephants!!

13. Where do you want to travel next?

- I always want to go to Disney World again. But probably to Georgia to visit Ashelynn and Rob after they move.

14. Are you a leader or a follower?

- I would definitely say that in the past I have been more of a follower. I can be very influenced by other people's decisions. But I want to change that this year. You need to be the leader of your own life for goodness sakes!

15. On a scale of one to ten, how was your lunch today?

- I didn't eat lunch today, so, 0. The life risk I took today by telling someone that I had had feelings for them for a long time? 10. Even though the feelings were not reciprocated, I have never felt more confident, or beautiful, or more proud of myself in my life!

16. Do you owe someone money? Does someone owe you money?

- I'm sure I do, somewhere... And I don't believe so....hmm.....

p.s - I swear I was having a stroke whilst typing this, I have never done so much backspacing in my life. 

- Cobb

Q&A 1/17-1/23 Catch-Up

Ah, Q's. Let's A the crap out of them!

• What's the oldest thing you're wearing?
• Oddly, my pants. I got them when I was in Godspell because I needed tight, black pants. They made me uncomfortable onstage because they're so tight, but I wear them all the time now. Clearly I've gotten sluttier. 
• Side note upon blogging this one: I actually lost those pants today. I think I left them at the laundromat and that makes me sad, but in addition to that serendipity I happen to be wearing my Godspell tour shirt today. Weird...
• What was peaceful about today?
• Almost everything! It's Martin Luther King Jr. Day, plus I'm off at the studio. Days spent doing nothing are my favorite. 
• List 3 foods you ate today.
• Egg rolls, chocolate-covered peanuts, and raw almonds. I'm making vegan chili for tomorrow. 
• Are you holding a grudge? About?
• Not a grudge, but a jealousy. Seriously, two people I still consider children got engaged this week, and I'm still over here in Ringless World. 
• What are you looking forward to? 
• It's still a long way off, but I'm so excited about Thailand. At longest, I'm waiting for May of 2017! 
• Are you seeking security or adventure?
• I'm torn on this one. I just quit my benefits-having, adequately-paying, semi-secure job with absolutely no safety net. So I'd like to say "Adventure." The adult in me keeps whispering that I need insurance, though, so safety would also be nice. I WANT IT ALL!
• Do you need a break? From what?
• Shockingly, no! I got a snow day yesterday, and I have tomorrow off from JCP. This is a break.

Good questions this week. I hope they stay that way.

- Bowman

Q&A: 1/11-1/16: The Week We Forgot

We went exactly ONE consecutive week posting our weekly answers. Couple of winners. Here's last weeks for all the masses who give so many shits.

• Today you lost (BLANK).
• 2 good hours of sleep because I fell asleep on the couch. This put quite a cramp in my leg.
• What's your favorite accessory?
• My tattoos. 
• Where do you want to travel next? 
• Thailand has been on my mind a lot lately. The only other places I care to visit at the moment are London and Paris. (#WhiteGirl)
• Are you a leader or a follower? 
• I think of myself as a follower. Our society places a higher value on leading, but someone has to follow, right? 
• On a scale of 1-10, how was your lunch today?
• Health-wise: 8; taste-wise: 4. BMS started a fitness challenge this week. My food isn't spectacular yet, but it'll get better. 
• Do you owe someone money? Does someone owe you?
• I owe my student loan companies a lot of money. $7,000 to one, and 36,000 to another. That'll never end. No one ever owes me money because I don't have any to lend out, due to the aforementioned student loans. 

- Bowman

Im just gonna be real right now.

Hello there,

It is 2:45am. I am posting a blog because, I just need to right now. And you can read this, or you don't have to, but I just have to get all this out of my head. And it's gonna be annoying, and a stream of consciousness.

I am feeling very strongly at the moment about just telling Spencer everything tomorrow. Wanna know why? Because I am awake and crying at 2o'clock in the fucking morning!! That's why!!
And feeling and putting myself through this is absolutely ridiculous.

I could talk myself out of it by the end of this blog, or i could feel differently in the morning IF i ever get to sleep. What will determine if I do this or not will be if I just don't get any sleep at all. Because...how sad would that be? That I am so hung up on the person even after a 2 year fucking hiatus, and all the feelings are all coming up again.

Why?! What is it about him that does this to me? Why has he been on my mind and been on my heart for 5 years?! 5 years of my life just....for what? He has in no way ever indicated that he would ever feel the same way, and if i see a glimmer of hope, it is no hope at all...it is just my imagination running away with me and playing tricks with my heart. It is so mean! STFU SELF!

I don't know if this is God keeping me up right now or the devil. Seriously, God keeps people up at night when he is speaking to them. Am I crazy? I have to be. In no way is this a good idea. I am just tired and frustrated and confused. By all of it. We have only hung out once in 2 years, and i was gonna give it another few months or so at least. But, who knows how often we will even hang out. And I am not getting any younger. But, I feel like i would be telling a stranger. Like...i don't even know if he has a girlfriend now. I doubt it, but, idk!

I just...I know that if i dont get this off of my chest, i will go crazy, and I will feel anxious and scared everyday. And I am sorry if any of this messes with the future of us hanging out. Cause, I sure it would be awkward the first time after. And...i hate that. However, knowing you and Amber, I will be the only one to make anything awkward. And it doesnt have to be. None of this does. But I feel like this needs to be nipped in the bud. Once and for all. Ya know? Well...you wont answer or see this until Sunday...so...

This has all gone on long enough, and I am just tired of talking about it, and I am tired of asking for advice, and I am tired of just not knowing. Whether good or bad, I will never know unless i put it out there into the universe. I feel like i will regret it all more if i never say anything. Because feeling something for someone is real and its beautiful, and if i never say anything when i could have and i didn't take the opportunity, i'll hate myself.  God help me.

just typing all this i am shaking.
I feel like i have never been so dramatic, or more full of shit, or more serious in my life. This is real life...and life stands still for no man. Being vulnerable is so scary and it is so naked, but it is also so beautiful and honest.

I told a guy in 8th grade that i liked him. I wrote him a note. He never said anything about it. I was devastated. But, we were kids, and i just thought he was cute and just wanted to have his babies..(wait...what...ha!), but this is different. In every way. I am not in love with Spencer, so I'm hoping it would not be a huge loss to my soul. But, I am as close to it as one could get. Or that I have ever felt anyway. And not just in the past few weeks of feeling all this again, but in the whole entire 5 years that i have had feelings for him.
This is all a terrifying, and probably stupid, risk, but, I feel like it is a risk worth taking. Maybe.



- Stupid Becca being stupid.... ha!

1/1/16 - 1/10/16: Toddy Is the Teenth

Ok, background because when we're 80 and need to remember why we wrote this:
Yesterday we found a Q&A daily journal at the Barnes and Noble's, so we decided to write in it daily and share our answers every week. That's 52 posts EACH for a YEAR! I give it a month.

Jk. Maybe. Here we go:

January 1 - What is your mission?

 - In life, my mission is to help others without worrying how it will affect me. To be kind to those who need kindness. To be selfless.


January 2 - Can people change?

- Not only can they, but I think people should change. If you're the same person you were at 16 when you're 30, you might need a good bit of alteration.


January 3 - What are you reading right now?

- The Paris Wife for the second time (for book club) and Book 5 in the Song of Ice and Fire series... still. I swear I've been reading it for a year. Hurry up, George R.R. Martin! I can only stretch this book so long!


January 4 - The best part of today?

- (I went back and looked at the actual 4th) Best part: Leaving In-service.


January 5 - What was the last restaurant you went to?

- Fuji with Keegan, Gary, and Jeff


January 6 - Today was tough because.......?

- School started again. I do NOT want to be here for the next 5 months. Ugh.


January 7 - You are lucky; how so or not so?

- I have a job (for now), I have a home that I like, and David loves me. One lucky lady.


January 8 - What song is stuck in your head?

- Mothereffing "Hotline Bling" - literally the worst song written this year.

January 9 - Was today typical? Why or why not?

- Yeah. I worked...so that's normal.


January 10 - Write down something that inspired you today.

- Buying the journal actually inspired me to write more regularly. I miss writing.

There. Idiot.
- Bowman

January 1 - 10, 2016 (But all happenings on the 10th) - Here we go again, you ass.

January 1 - What is your mission?

 - I suppose my mission, specifically for this year is to take more risks. Really put myself out there and not be so self doubtful. To develop a stronger sense of confidence.


January 2 - Can people change?

- I think to an extent they can. If they really want to and truly try hard enough. However, I think on some things, people are who they are, and they should just embrace it. Being yourself is all you can be in this world. Unless you are just an asshole, then maybe you should really do some self reflection and change that... for sure.


January 3 - What are you reading right now?

- I have my Darling magazines that need reading, and I am also reading Proverbs with Christina. We are on Chapter 16.


January 4 - The best part of today?

- Red velvet pancakes, and hanging out with my idiot of a best friend. Blah.


January 5 - What was the last restaurant you went to?

- IHop with your stupid face. My red velvet pancake cherry has been popped. ...Ew..


January 6 - Today was tough because.......?

- Dealing with and being patient with small children can be difficult. But getting great photos out of it always makes it somewhat worth it.


January 7 - You are lucky; how so or not so?

- I don't really believe in luck. I truly believe everything happens for a reason. I think people suggest it as luck as to not acknowledge a higher power in control over their lives. We are never in control at all. People don't like to believe that.


January 8 - What song is stuck in your head?

- I have been listening to "You're in Love" by Betty Who a lot. And "Reflections" by Misterwives. Also, "Brave" by Sara Bareilles...which we hate, but now it is hilarious.


January 9 - Was today typical? Why or why not?

- Actually not really. It was a Sunday, and i usually work all day. But it was a slow day, so I got off early, and then your dumbass and I went to eat and buy books we didn't need. So....nah, not a "typical" sunday.


January 10 - Write down something that inspired you today.

- Photography in general. I came across a cookbook called "Toast", just different toast recipes, but the photography was STUNNING. I was like "I could do that!!" So, maybe I will begin trying to start some kind of still life/food portfolio. Wee!!


- Cobb