I am just not good at this.

Shut up,

Ever stare at a word for like a minute and think "man...that doesnt look like it is spelled right". I just did that to the word "shut" above this. What the crap?

Anywhohow, Hope your week as has been good!

Wanna know what im not good at? Blogging.

I always want it to be this deep, perceptive, insightful jumble of words and sentences, but, i dont know if it ever turns out that way. Its really frustrating when you FEEL like you have important and life changing things to say...but you dont know how to say it. You dont know what the rights words are, and what the right order is for those words for them to be "life changing". I sometimes have this overwhelming need to want to change someones life. Like in a way where i say something so true to life and insightful and whatnot and that person's life is forever changed because of my words. And they look at the world in a new way and smell the air differently or whatever. ha! Is that stupid? 

I think this might be a common struggle with all humans. Its just one example of a small insignificant human trying to find their voice and their purpose for being on this planet. Sure we were created to worship God, and give Him the glory, and lead other people to His love and His grace. And that should be enough right? Right. However, it doesnt always feel like enough. And i'll tell you why. Its because we are sinners..and we are sinful..and we will NEVER amount to what we feel like we should. We will NEVER be perfect and sinless and flawless and well put together. Most of us will never get our shit together. 

In a way...this should be a relieving thought. Like the weight of the world is lifted off of our shoulders just by the simple fact that we know we can never carry it. But it is also terrifying. To never feel good enough...to never feel worthy enough. To always feel like we are walking a path of failure. 

However, I also don't believe that God expects these types of things from us. Maybe he doesnt expect us to always want to lean on Him, spend time with Him, give Him the time of day. Because He knows we get caught up in daily life. Things thats physically and emotionally hold us back from trusting and relying on Him. Paying bills, going to school, taking care of family, etc....all of these things distract us from acknowledging the one Being who put it all here in the first place. We would have NOTHING without God. 
I want so badly to think about Him constantly..and never waiver from trusting in Him. Even with this permanent reminder on my arm, i STILL forget. Which i should have expected that. But when my arm does force me to remember...i am so grateful. And i am filled with a stillness. It forces me to acknowledge my Creator. Something we honestly should not have to be forced to do. 

I know i have been all over the place with this mess. But this all just came out of my fingers as i typed this to you...and i just went with it. I don't know. 

I hope i have changed your life...your perspective....your world. hahahaha! naw....I hope you sneezed on your computer while reading this....and then had to clean the screen with your hand...and then got globs of snot on your hand and had to go to the bathroom to wash it off and then came back and was like "where was i?" and then David called so you stopped and talked to him and then polly shit in in the middle of the living room and you had to clean it up and it smelled of shit so it made you gag and then you watched Family Guy and forgot all about this blog post and then fell asleep on the couch with gum in your mouth and then the gum got in your hair while you slept and then you had to cut your hair in the morning before school and all the kids were like "haha miss bowman you look hideous" and then you cried in front of them and called them all little asshats and went to the bathroom and cried and just needed a breather and then found a cigarette in your pocket and decided to smoke it in the bathroom and then your got caught and fired on the spot and then you left and slipped on the pavement and broke your clavicle and no one cared and you died alone. 

Have a good one! 

 teehee!

Dinkin Flicka

Whore ass,

Well.....we suck at this apparently. We were doing so well for a while too! Gotta get back into it.

Basically, i am in class and i am bored out of my freaking skull. I could be doing so many other things right now. Like...walking a dog, eating a cake, watching a squirrel eat a nut, ya know the things i normally do everyday! This class is such a waste of my time.

I hope you are having a good teaching year so far. That you are not leading our future generation into destruction. Who am i kidding, of course you are. Keep up the good work, Teach!

Big Brother Finale comes on tonight.....NOOO!!!!!!

blahblahblah.....Gah, i don't have much of anything else to say. Oh well.

I tried.

Sorry Ashelynn...

Your turn Bowman.

Minerva is gonna die soon.

That sucks balls.

I wanna go home.

I am happy that i get to sleep late in the morning.

Ok, i will go now.






Just kidding...

i'm still here...

This class is stupid..

Ok, i am a broken record now.

Ok, i will go....

Here is a thing...

Election Day: A Story of How Bad I am at Reading

I have quite the fantastic story to tell you.

So, I've been out of town. Whilst visiting my boothang, I got a short-term job making phone calls for a candidate for circuit court judge in this county. This entailed calling people and either bothering the hell out of them to vote for this lady, or leaving a "courtesy" message about voting dates.

I had called roughly 100 people near the end of the day, and proceeded with my last page of numbers. Phone rings, and no one picks up. Hot dog! No social interaction! Score!

I'm reading off my script (that I wrote myself), and I get a little tongue tied. Let me spell out for you exactly what happened next (italicized words are thoughts going through my head):

Anon. Man: "Please leave a message and we'll get back to you."

*beep*

Me: "This is a courtesy reminder that early voting begins Juloo 18th.... (why did I say Juloo instead of July? Haha)... and erection day is August 7th... (WTF DID I JUST SAY!??!?)... Um.... hahahahahahahha! Thanks for your support? AHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!! I AM SO SORRY! .................................................. BYE!"

I should not be allowed to interact with the public. Ever, ever again.

- Bowman

So....s'been a while....

You there, with the name,

I'm not even gonna acknowledge how long its been. I just gonna side step the fact that the last blog entry we did was in the beginning of May. And i'm also not gonna mention the fact that we are the worst bloggers in the history of blogging.

I wanted to pick out a movie...and break it apart for you...and tell you how much it means to me. Tell you what it represents and how it changes my way of thinking. I'm in that kind of artistic type mood in that i want to think deeply and complexly about something. I wanted it to be this fantastical usage of words that would prove to you and to our reader(s) how i could have the potential one day to write a book about something important and eye opening. I have this dreamer's dream of touching souls and hearts with my words, or my photography, or my opinions, or my art. I like to dream big yet, i am small. My loves and my abilities sometimes feel a lot bigger than me. And my actual ability to attain these things that i dream about can sometimes seem so.....nonexistent.

I am watching The Princess Bride. I picked this one to bullshit my deep and complex rhetoric(is this the correct usage of this? haha!), because it didnt seem that i would have to work that hard. This movie is not that complex...in fact everything that makes is special and meaningful is right on the surface.

1. This film is about love. Duh! Buttercup and Wesley, one of the greatest love stories ever. They lost each other for a time, but always believed that they be reunited. Like Wesley says "death cannot stop true love, all it can do is delay it for a while". Even when Buttercup thought Wesley was dead, she swore never to love again. Which seems kind of sad and almost pathetic, i mean come on woman, move on at SOME point! But, it just shows how deeply she loved him. And even when they found their way back to each other she knew that he was the one for her, she always knew. I mean she purposefully threw herself off of a hill and rolled down it for him! Hitting rocks along the way. THAT'S love!

2. This film is about courage. Climbing a billion foot wall? Uh..yea...courage. Fighting for your woman. Aiming to avenge your fathers death by killing the man who killed him. Venturing into the Fire Swanp. Fighting big ass rats. All take courage. Anything that takes you out of your comfort zone, anything that breaks your spirit and forces you to live through each day, anything that makes you question yourself takes courage. We should all strive to be brave everyday. I wish i was.

3. This film is about confidence. Did you ever notice how very self aware and self confident each character is? Everyone is very confident in their craft. Sword fighting, cleverness, throwing rocks, insulting prince's, sucking life out of someone with a machine, jumping from a window. No one seems to second guess themselves. Wesley has to know that he got lucky choaking Fessik unconscious. Like Fessik said " Its not my fault being the biggest and the strongest...i dont even exercise." But Wesley kept at it...he had the confidence that he could eventually wear him out and move on to rescuing his love.  Except for Vizzini, he thinks is he a genius, but he is a great fool. ha!

4. Humperdink......

I'm all out of bullshitting. I think i have made my point.

Well, i hope this had been insightful, and has made you think about.....life...for a second. ha!

So long, ya dumbass.

What I Would Do If I Weren't a Teacher

Moron,

I'm showing a video on Electricity and Currents. It's a Mythbusters. They totally just said "the cockpit is very hard..." and no kid laughed. This proves my 12 year old students are more mature than I am. Quality education!

FUN FACT! Did you know that BLANK Middle School (my place of employment) is firing not one, but two count em two teachers this year? Awesome, since I'm on the chopping block! So instead of improving my teaching or impressing the admins, I've been thinking of jobs I could do instead of teaching. Here are the top ten:

1. Professional Football Team Mascot Name Maker-Upper: Can't you just picture a bunch of masculine males and girls trying to look cool in front of those males cheering for the Brooklyn Butt-Munchers? Or how about booing the ever-unpopular Philadelphia Poop Stains? 
2. Tattoo Artist Who Only Tattoos Dots: I can't draw, but I can sure stab people!
3. Model for Really Unattractive Haircuts in Those Magazines You See at the Hairdresser's: You know what I mean. Those magazines with haircuts/styles that no human could ever actually be asking for. Mullet, here I come!
4. Dog Walker: On second thought, never mind this one. I'd just turn into a Dog-napper. 
5. Nail Polish Color Namer: Pink? No, Grapefruit Sorbet! Green? No, Blade of Grass. Brown? No, Poop. 
6. Professional Coffee Shop Patron Who Looks Like a Hipster: I already own a fanny pack AND a beanie. 
7. CIA Code-Breaker: Just kidding. I can't even finish Sudoku puzzles.
8. Book Reader: But I get to choose what books. And there are no deadlines. And I get paid.
9. Personal Assistant to James Marsden, but Only When He's Naked: Because someone's gotta do it. 
10. McDonald's Employee: I'm at the point in my life when I can confidently say: I just need the money. 

There you go. Dream life.

- Bowman

One week leeeeeeeeeeft!!!

Namwob,  (teehee)

I got a slight headache all of the sudden. Deciding to write a blog to you does that to me apparently.

Well, I'm narrowing down to the end of this semester. And of course, this is the time when i start to have mini freak outs thinking of everything that i need to get done, and thinking that i wont be able to get it all done in time. But, of course, i always to. I work best under pressure i think. haha! That will definitely be put to the ultimate test when i get out in to the actual work world. ha!

I still haven't heard anything from that photo job yet. Not gonna worry about it though. Its in God's hands and that lady's. So.. yea.

I can't wait for your band to start doing bandy things! I'm gonna be such a groupie that i might have you sign one of my boobs at some point! That's right! And then i'll get your autograph tattooed on my boob. Eh...i might rethink that one....maybe on my butt. hahaha!

I think it is safe to say that we have thrown our original structure out of the window. haha! That's ok. Maybe we can think of a better one! But, we have been busy, so, that's ok too. Miss "I direct plays, I have a wonderful boyfriend, I am in a band now, I can sing, I can dance, I can teach kids about topics," blahblahblahblahBLAH! ha!

My headache is gone.....dafuq?

We should go on a mini road trip this summer! To...like....idk....somewhere in driving distance...but not that far away, and close enough to where we can drive back in one day....unless i have a job/money, and maybe we can stay in the worst hotel ever, and get hepatitis, and have a great story to tell about our shared disease! Sounds fun!!

Am i listening to that damn Classic song? ......si.

I think i am back on normal period times! YAY!!! I'M NOT DYING! I know you wanted to know that....hence...why I'm telling you. "YEA! HENCE!"

Game of Thrones was.....interesting tonight. But great as always. DUH!

I have a test this Tuesday....i hope i so well on it. UGH! I will be SOOO glad when i never have to study for another test ever again!

Now I'm Listening to Everybody Loves Raymond! A step up from the song. haha!

I need to get back into reading. We should do another readathon this summer! Make it longer though, like 2 weeks or a month! That would make it easier for me i think. Less pressure. ha!

Well....I'm done with you, I'm gonna go.
Shut up forever. BYE!

I'm your favorite kind of student.

Shut up,


Yep, i am in class. My lecture Folk Art class. Am i paying a bit of attention? NOPE!

Hence the title of this grand post.

She is talking about canes right now. They look like Harry Potter wands!! baha!

My nails are growing out! They will be all funky and painted soon!!

I am apparently just going to make a lot of statements and not complete thoughts in paragraphs.

Deal with it.

My teacher keeps coughing...i think she will die any second.

I did have a paper or powerpoint due tomorrow, but now she moved it back further. SO YAY!!! It wont get done tonight.

When will i see you again?

I dont care.

I am gonna try to make this the longest post...evah.

Completely made up of random statements.

I have about 40 mins left of class.

The art show should be fun tomorrow night. I hope i dont see your stupid face there. At all.

I bet you are excited about Hairspray! I can't wait to see it!!

Starts next week right? EEEEPP!

This class is so damn boring. I could give a crap about any of this information.

I can't wait for American Horror Story!!! I hope that it will be better than last season. Not that last season was horrible. But not as good as the first two. It has potential to be the most freaky one yet...hence the title Freak Show!!

I wonder if we will ever have that hang out day with Spencer. i highly doubt it.

I want some donuts.

Chickfila cookies are the best.

There are so many movies that i cant wait for this year! SO MANYY!!

i wanna go hoooooooome!

Clearly i dont have a lot to talk about. Like ever. ha.

I should hopefully get my Office Trivia Game today!!!! I better!! There has been some problems with the sender and the sending in general.

Teach is just so interested and into this information. Everyone always looks so bored. But...she tries to keep our attention. She hasn't had my attention for a few weeks. haha! Im over it.

Well....i have nothing else to say.

I failed at making this the longest post evah. ugh. life.

See ya! I hope not.



R.I.P Eddard Stark.
The odds were never in your favor....
Winter came for you....
It all Ended....
One choice transformed you...
....thats all i got....

Class, more like ASS!

Shit Tard,


I am sitting in class. People are giving presentations and i hope that my typing is not too loud. But, at the same time, i dont care. Also, i am getting tired of capitalizing some of my words. like I...and the beginnings of my sentences. so....i will stop now. get over it. You dont teach english anymore. haha!

the hairspray news went all the way to NEW YORK?!?!?! WHATTT?!?! that is insane. and wonderful at the same time. what does blackball mean? other than what it obviously means....

nvm..ill look it up. i dont need you.

there is literally no reason for me to be here right now. my space bar seems really loud and i am trying to keep it as quiet as possible. i should just start banging on my keyboard. baha!

i need to take more photos. and i need a cloudy day. and models. ugh. i hate having to rely on weather and people.

i like big mutts and i cannot lie. you other bitches cant deny. that when a dog walks in with an ity bitt face and a long tongue in your face you get licked.

thats right.

instead of studying yesterday i finished Allegiant ( that damn book...i am still kind of upset. it was good though).  and then i watched Catching Fire!!! and behind the scenes stuff! which is so amazing. i love stuff like thaaaaaaat!

im glad you get to see your stupid ass boyfriends during your stupid ass spring break.
i just realized that i typed "boyfriendS"...and im gonna leave it, because you're a whore.

loveyouBYE.

What the Eff is My Life?

Wanna hear a current event? TOO BAD! You're getting one anyway! 

As you know, but our fake followers that I made up in my head to make me feel better don't, our production of Hairspray was cancelled for insanely stupid reasons. Long story short, people in the freaking state of New York were pissed about it and were going to blackball the school. (lol...blackball) Anyway, we're back in rehearsal mode since we're re-allowed to do the show! AND I AM EXHAUSTED! How is this "current events," you may ask? We were on the news! Twice! Yay, controversy!

I'm super excited, but also scared at the same time. So, I'm making a list of oxymoronic things that are happening/have happened this week (emphasis on the "moronic" part). 

1. WAY excited about the show starting back up; also afraid it won't live up to the hype.

2. Got my phone stolen. Was mad. Got new phone that I like better anyway.

3. Went on field trip to Graceland and had fun; field trip was on a Thursday for some stupid reason, so had to come to school today. 

4. Free cake at lunch today; on a diet.

5. Spring Break starts this afternoon; this afternoon is refusing to get here. 

6. Tomorrow is Saturday; have Thai class, 4 hours of rehearsal, 1.5 hour round-trip drive to Memphis, then a movie date with your ugly face. 

There's no picture of that on google images, so just picture it in your tiny brain.

Later.

- Bowman

Its gonna be random again. Get over it.

Ballface,

Its 12:32 in the morning. I am listening to deep and emotional indie music on Pandora. Right now the song is "Bones" by Ben Howard. You should look it up and listen to it while you read this. GO! DO IT! ITLL BE FUN! Ha.

Anyways, I dont have anything specific to talk about...Hi there...

I need to keep a journal  more. Its so interesting to go back through some old ones i have and read my thoughts. I want to be able to do that for a long time. I dont want to forget anything, ya know?

Song now is "A Drop in the Ocean" by Ron Pope. Look that up now instead!!

Do you have any nervous things that you do, that you notice you do without thinking about it? I do. I dont know if it is "nerves" really...idk what they would be called. Biting my nails is one....i havent bit them like this since i was 16. STOP REBECCA!! I also pick at bumps on my shoulders...like acne...and that just creates more. And i also run my fingers through my scalp...constantly. Jeez.

Did you enjoy that? is this pleasant for you? are you enjoying yourself?

I dont look people in the eye a lot. Just a random thought that popped into my head. When i meet someone new mainly. I look at them for a split second, then i look away. I dont know why. Maybe i dont want them to see me staring into their soul...cause ya know...Im an artist....we do that... HA!

Look at you not having school at all this week. I do hope you get to rehearse at some point though. That would suck to get behind.

Song now: "Half Acre" by HEM. LISTEN TO THIS ONE!!!!! PLEASE!!!! YOU'LL LIKE IT!!

"Do you carry every sadness with you?" - a line from the song. ha!

well.....i guess i'll give your eyes a rest. Go rest them on BREAKING BAD,  YA DINGDONG!!

This is the face i am giving you.....im gonna go Walter White on yo ass!

What the Nuts?!

Idiothead,

Where the heck have I been? Basically doing everything in the universe other than blogging. I even went skydiving. Just kidding. I'm a terrible liar. I'm afraid of heights and would probably simultaneously poo my pants and die. If I did poo my pants and didn't die, I would probably accidentally not pull my chute so I could at least save face. Priorities!

So, facts:

1. We got a metric crapton of snow days this year. I ain't complaining, but the high schoolers have missed like 7 rehearsals because of that and I'm FREAKING OUT!

2. Oh, and I'm directing a musical at a high school. It's Hairspray. See Fact 1.

3. You already knew that, but our imaginary followers don't.

4. I keep getting sugar headaches. Mostly on accounta I keep eatin a buncha sugar.

5. Maybe I shouldn't have started back with a "random" post, as this one is sucking.

6. I'm stopping at six because, SATAN!

I think we should add a Rant day. I watched Hank Green rant about book jacket summaries, and he was SO RIGHT!

Whoever writes those things is basically a sadistic douche who likes giving away the endings of perfectly good stories. But I digress.

Wait. No I don't. This entire post is one big digression. HEY! Turns out "digression" is, indeed, a word! The more you know!

- Bowman

Howdy Doodle!

Bowmess,

Watchin Teen Mom 2.....SAAAAIIILLL!!

Anyway....who knows what week it is....so....random time!

If Sasha vomits up her food.....i will make her eat it...and then kill her.

I hope this project ive thought up goes well. You can help me come up with some ideas maybe! Since you have some acting experience, and David as well...i think you both will do great and be able to evoke the emotions and feeling i am trying to portray. Its pretty simple....you pretty much just have to be in love....which...you already are...so that helps.

I have a test thursday. Have i studied? of COURSE not. DUH!

Well....i really have nothing else to say...ha!

This post was well worth the wait for our follower.....you know who you are...i see you...

SEE YA FREAKIN LATER!!

Typical Blogger Hiatus.

Bow-Shut up...

Alright my wisdom toothless, child teaching, badass sailing (not really), stupid, ugly poop friend, its time to get back in our groove of bloodiness (i typed "blogginess ", but i'm gonna leave it. haha!).

I have no stinkin clue what week it would be, so, this wan be random week. Randomness number one, i am watching Everybody Loves Raymond!

Sad thing about this right now is that i have nothing to talk about. So. without further ado, here are the next 20 things that pop in my head....no hesitation.....ready? GO!

1. Goose is a funny word.
2. Move is a funny word.
3.Bananas are yellow and they are gross.
4. I typed $ instead of $ at first.
5. My arms are falling asleep. I'll leave the reason to your imagination. ha!
6. Twenty is a long ways off. ugh.
7. Fruit punch...i want some.
8. And i want some oreos.
9. This is like Grace's stream of conshhhhhnious.
10. I hope you have a good week and that your teeth dont act like bitches.
11. I have nothing to say for number 11.
12. 11 looks like two sticks...with flags at the top..
13. 13!!
14. I wanna see so many movies right now.
15. Why dont they make fudge flavored salad?
16. 15....Dafuq?!
17. My phone just went off. Wonder who is communicating with me.
18. It was Amber! She said "I. Love. Titus" which i thought was "I love tits" at first. Honest mistake.
19. erunrtvibtvinluernpvuentuebpuenvpoeunvpuvbepigwbg
20. Words i found in the above nonsense: run,poe,pig,wig,uno,vent,lube,tube,beep,pen,.....done.

DONE!
CYAL8TAH!

Surprise New Year Post!

Oh hai! Can you guess what today is? No. Shut up. It's January 4th. That means it's closing in on the day when everyone's New Year's resolution goes down the proverbial crapper!

Pictured: your hopes and dreams

You see, the problem with "resolving" to do things for the new year is that there's basically nothing to keep us accountable. The other (and less finger-pointy) problem is that we choose difficult resolutions.

Scott gets it.

Here is my proposal for better resolution-keeping: make keep-able resolutions! Duh! You'd like some examples? GREAT! I happen to have some lined up! 

1. Clean my apartment...... once. Self-explanatory. (BONUS: Learn how to spell "explanatory" so I don't have to spell-check it each time I use it.) 
2. Consume over 2,000 calories in one meal at least twice a year. I mean, who doesn't love a Big Mac meal?
3. Tell myself I'll stop spending money. Go to Barnes and Noble the next day and buy a $20 journal I'll forget to write in. I'll think the journal's so pretty that I must find something meaningful to write in it, but I have nothing meaningful to say. So, it sits with my other journals while I wish I was a Bronte sister. (BONUS: Fix the syntax of that sentence.)
4. Exercise whenever I freaking feel like it. Because sometimes I do. Gotta listen to that body!
5. Spend a whole Saturday on the couch. Done.
6. Forget to buy paper towels, thus leaving the kitchen counters dirty for one more week. (BONUS: Go to the store specifically for paper towels and forget to buy them again.)
7. Watch one-too-many episodes of Buffy on Netflix and wonder why I know nothing of current events. What's politics?
8. Take at least one relaxing bath with bubbles. After all that Buffy-watching and food-eating, I might get stressed out.
9. Drink, like, five cups of coffee before 10 am. Thentypelikethewindbecasecaffeine!!!!!
10. Continue cursing. Dammit.

There you have it! I am 100% positive that I can an will accomplish every item on that list in 2014. I am a winner. 

Motto.

- Bowman