30DWC - DAY 11 - What If.....

Short and sweet...


I still sometimes wonder:

What if I had continued on in becoming a Dental Hygienist?

Not that i regret my Fine Art degree in the slightest bit, but, I do think sometimes that if i had continued on with becoming a dental hygienist, i would have a more steady actual career right now. I would probably be out on my own. I would be supporting myself. I would have money. I would have fridays and weekends off.  Maybe I would have met a fella by now, cause Lord knows who you can meet in dental school or in the office...

But, I also realize that that only time i start to think about the "what if's" is when I start having self doubt. When i feel like what I am doing now isn't going anywhere or when I don't know what I am doing. 

But looking back on it, i always had the mind set of "this is practical, this will be a good career, this should be fine, i will make good money" when pursuing dental hygiene. However, with photography, it is something that i love to do. And i know that it is not guaranteed or practical, but somehow, I don't really care, cause i know i will make it work, and i will be doing what i love, so, it doesnt seem that scary....sometimes. 

I try not to think too much about the "what if's". Cause it is pointless. We get very few do overs in this life. And I just want to try to think about it more like "what if i get to do this? what if i meet him here? what if this happens." Instead of "what if i had done this? What if I had said that?" Cause we will never know the answers to those kinds of "what if's". But we can always look forward to the future. :)

- Cobb

....nah.